THEN & NOW: STAIRS (20 Years)

EASTER BABY

YSTELLAH

Easter Baby Girl

8 months old 

Photo c/o Mother, CA

DAVID'S HEART

Valentine's Day Card c/o Santos Family 

LEGO MOC (My Own Creation) by David, 4 years old

Photo Courtesy of PAS

COOKIE MONSTER'S BUILDING and THE CONCERT

LEGO MOC (My Own Creation) by David, 4 years old

Video Courtesy of PAS

"The Concert"

by David,  4 years old

MONSTER BUDDY

"Monster Buddy"

LEGO MOC (My Own Creation) by David, 4 years old

Photo Courtesy of PAS

GOODBYE HELLO 2024

"Goodbye 2023! Hello 2024!"

PHROG or FROG

Drawing by Bianca, 9 years old (pencil-drawn on bond paper)

KART KID

Nico, 5 years old

GOODBYE HELLO 2023

"Goodbye 2022! Hello 2023!"

FEEL THE RUSH

Nicolas, 2022

Nicolas, 2006

BEARCAT IS BACK

"We're all in this together."

GEN GAP

"That's clean." - Savion & Nicolas

"I'll dirty it up." - Dad

ERASERHEADS CHRISTMAS

2022.09.19

2022.10.05

INITIAL D BIRTHDAY

Nicolas, 20 years old

SAVNIC BASKETBALL

WILSON

Wilson! Savion! Nicolas!

#backhome

CONGRATULATIONS, SAVION!

Savion! 

NYUAD Batch 2022

Composite photo courtesy of Boyette Perfecto

DAVID & LEGOLIATH

"The Guard Truck"

LEGO DUPLO MOC (My Own Creation) by David, 3 years old

Photo Courtesy of PAS

GOODBYE HELLO 2022

"Goodbye 2021. Hello 2022."

LITTLE DRUMMER DREAMS

M

Daughter, drummer

Snippet c/o I

PROOF of LIFE

Nicolas

Travel Ban

Sweeper Flight

Missing

Safe

Quarantine

Home

CAST AWAY

Stuck at NYUAD

(Due to Travel Ban)

HEY MOM

hey mom

sometimes i think about those days when kuya and i were just babies and you were a young manila mom trying to figure it all out. i dont remember much (obviously) but i do remember our tiny house that used to seem so huge. i remember running around and hitting my head on everything. i remember fighting with kuya...alot. i remember our old big box tvs that took up half of the room. i remember you not allowing me to watch spongebob until i was 7. i remember when our love for videogames started and our love for star wars and movies (thanks dad ya big nerd). i think back to these times because growing up i figured you were just mom. you knew how everything worked. you knew what medicines to give us when we got sick. you knew what ingredients to put into every meal and every cookie. you knew everything about being a mom. growing up the lines were clear. we were the kids, you were the mom.

but now im confused. im confused about that young manila mom that knew everything about everything. kuya is 21 and im 18. we are, for all intents and purposes, completely grown up. as a kid i thought that when you grew up you would have everything figured out. just like you. i thought that i would know everything about everything. just like you. but to be honest, im completely lost. so now i ask myself “how?” how did you know where all the medicines were? where to bring us when we got sick? how to calm us down when we were crying or angry? how to scold us when we were being naughty? how to raise us to not hate you for putting us on timeout? how to make sure that when we were grown up, we would stay on the tracks that you laid out for us?

maybe you had help. lola and nanay were there for guidance. maybe you took a class. i have no damn clue. what i do know is that i understand now that of course you’re not perfect. and what i understand now is that you had the same thoughts that i have now. we both struggle and we both get sad and angry and happy and emotional. but growing up i never thought of that. because you were always so perfect. you were mom. thanks for setting an impossible standard and thank you for everything. love you mom cant wait to get back.

- nicolas -